Connection With Oneself

How can we generate this euphoria?  Are you in tune with your internal dialog or the connection you have with yourself? Are we simply going through the motions one day at a time, or can we become self-aware enough to mindfully connect with the world around us, with ourselves? Can you take criticism and evaluate yourself?  Do you know why you crave life the way you do? What are your morals?

All of this is the beginning of your internal dialog. My life changed when I exercised and supported my internal dialog. When I was able to speak to myself, from myself. There's an old saying that goes something like, if you talk to yourself, you're crazy. I think about that from time to time.  Although, I've seen enough psych professionals to know where I stand on that spectrum. 

When you put the dialog in your mind into substance, it has profound meaning - with no one else's emotions weighing it down. Emotions come across so quickly and unintentionally. Once you've gone through this process, when others' emotions inevitably come into contact with your orbit, your mental and your energy will be ready. Nothing can throw you for a loop. What substance means to you, is different for everyone. For myself, I write. Think about it - musicians, rappers, poets, and artists of all kinds take thoughts and ideas and turn them into something tangible. What used to be records or CDs are now playlists and lines from poems are put on cute little wooden boards you hang on your kitchen wall. I believe in my soul that this process builds a connection with the inner you.

This then radiates and evolves - and that euphoria you get when a song hits your soul, or a conversation is passionate, becomes more intense and more common. Leading to fruitful relationships with others and with each passing moment in the day. 

Here is a blanket statement for you: we weren't always this disconnected. As a whole, no, we don't want to revert to times before technology was so demanding of our attention. However, in my experience and opinion, connection is one area we can afford to make a prominent goal.  There is no cure-all for purity.  The work is within each person. Everyone holds this power.  

Years of journaling and writing. Many paintings and conversations with myself. Mindful meditation. Journals filled with questions asked, some still waiting for an answer. I have made self-awareness a goal for myself. This way I am teachable but not malleable. I can be strong like a boulder, but aware enough to know when being strong is not necessary. Crumbling is necessary and allows for evolved self-dialog to pick up the pieces. 

I publish this tonight with the hope that these paragraphs are not interpreted as enigmatic. If so, keep reading.  It will all make sense. 

Until next time. 

Speak. Communicate. Connect. 

xoxo